The Day Before

I woke up with a peaceful feeling and it stayed with me all day.  I am so grateful for that because it allowed me to enjoy the last moments with that funky foot, but also be a mom.  Carter and Matt wanted it to be a special day for Will.  They started out with a special breakfast consisting of pancakes and sausage.  Since Will can't eat those things he ate bananas.  Then they wanted to do something fun for Will's last day with his foot, So they painted their pinewood derby cars.  We made one for Will too.  Will's special day turned out to be a good day for those brothers.  It was a good day.  We've been surrounded by friends and family and well wishes and prayers.  We feel those prayers.  They have given me strength.  Thank you!

     I loved giving him his bath.  He loves to kick and splash and play.  I love that cute little baby body.  As I got him out and dried him and lotioned him I loved every little part of that body.  I gave extra kisses and tickles to that foot.  It was the last time I would bath and wash and lotion it.  I did it with lots of love.
     As I rocked Will to sleep I loved him as much as I could.  I just held that cute little funky foot.  I tried to memorize how it felt in my hand.  Warm and soft with his pinkie toe fitting between my fingers.  As I tickled his foot I cherished how it felt to have those toes curl and squeeze my hand.  I hope I never forget how that feels!  Oh how I love that foot!  I love this boy so much.  I can't put into words the intensity of the feelings I have for him.  I just LOVE him.  I will forever.  I think I always have and I know I always will.